Good morning sunshine. I wanted to get really honest this morning, for a change 😉 You might be surprised to know that this ‘happiness’ stuff doesn’t come naturally to me. Don’t get me wrong, it’s the most natural thing in the world, but it doesn’t just ‘happen’, for me at least. I have to work at it, every single day.
I have a sneaking suspicion that if I let myself, I would be the most depressed human on the planet. But I’ve been there, and it wasn’t fun – so I choose happiness instead. How? By committing to joy every single morning.
By committing to self-care rituals, morning meditations and knowing I don’t have to listen to the negative voices in my head. By engaging in pursuits I adore and asking how I can use the gifts I have been given to serve other people and make their journey a little lighter. By recognising that loneliness has nothing to do with the people around you but the love within you.
By acknowledging that if I feel like shit, there’s an underlying reason – there’s something I’m not saying, some emotion I’m not feeling or some thought or idea I’m not creatively expressing.
By asking myself, ‘Where is there stagnant energy trapped in my body?’ and then doing yoga, dancing or some other form of movement, to release and shake it out.
By asking myself, ‘What am I not creatively expressing?’ then sitting down with my journal and writing until my fingers bleed.
By asking myself, ‘Where am I ignoring my intuition?’ and then getting on my meditation cushion for half an hour.
By asking myself, ‘What do I need to let go of?’ and then having a really good cry on the lounge room floor.
This morning I started by asking, ‘What energy am I feeling that isn’t my own?’ I’m mourning for the families in Syria at the moment. I’ve only caught glimpses of the news and what I’ve seen on social media but it’s enough to make my heart ache. If I don’t acknowledge that, or understand that, it seems like I’m sad for no reason. (I’m on holiday in one of the most beautiful places in the country, how can I possibly feel sad?) But that’s why it’s so important to go deeper. To face head on whatever emotion you’re feeling and lean into rather than pulling away from it.
It’s called spiritual practice because you have to work at it, every single day. Is it easy? No. Is it worth it? Abso-fucking-lutely.